Today, like many days, I get up and think there is no way I can drag myself out to train. But I get dressed and go. The idea of losing a day and sliding backward slowly but surely is my main motivation. Adrián told me on Tuesday that by August I will be doing a 5K in 25 minutes. That is a decent average time for any beginner. Where in the world does he get this stuff???

The Evaluation

After my training routine today, Adrián said it was time for me to use my heart monitor again because he wants to evaluate my performance.-----------------------------------------------------------------"What do you mean, evaluate my performance? What do I have to do?"------------------------"Well, you check your heart rate as you do 10 minutes at an easy trot, then you recover, then you do 10 minutes at a moderate trot, you recover, then you do 10 minutes of running, and we'll see if your heart is hitting its training rate often enough."-------------------------------------"When are we going to do this?" I asked, wondering if I could arrange to leave the country in time. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Oh, next week, probably Tuesday, how does that seem to you?"--------------------------------"HA!!!" I howled, "I will be in Seattle next week!!!"----------------------------------------------If I thought this was putting paid to the matter, I was mistaken. Adrián simply put the whole thing off a single week until I get back. My heart, and its rate, sank. I could hack the easy trot, the moderate trot for 10 minutes seems undoable, and the idea of running for 10 minutes is frankly insane. There was a moment or two when Adrián's voice tapered off as he mentioned the ten-minute run, as if it even occurred to him that the idea bordered on pyschosis. Well, I have that week in Seattle to keep working, along with the ghastly uphill phases of the running path near my son's home. I think I'd better start practicing. Doesn't this guy know how old I am???

Living in Hell

There is an artificial waterfall in our back yard made of some nice stone, and a small fountain in the front yard also made of rock. People have always noticed the unusual numbers and varieties of birds that flock here, especially now that we no longer have a cat. For a while we had an opossum that found a place to build a lair too, but we had to trap it and release it in the wild because our standard poodle would spend the entire day hunched down at the lair entrance wondering what kind of act of God had made its home there.-------------------------------------------------------------------Let me digress yet again and mention that our poodle is a cossetted creature if ever there was one, so he thinks that other living creatures are objects of fascination and play but not aggression. Once he was running around our small country place at twilight while my husband and I strolled here and there enjoying the evening, and I noticed he had found something under a tree that had captured his full attention. He would approach and then leap back, having a great time. There was not enough light for me to identify the object of such interest, but then I saw the creature beat a retreat---well, not the whole creature, I saw his high, black and white tail.---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Oh my God, TootSweet has found a skunk!" I yelled. When I finally got the dog to come, it was obvious that the skunk had missed his mark--TootSweet is fast on his feet--but the silly mutt had made a careful exploration of the spot where the emanation had landed and he had dragged his ears through the stuff. Such is his personality that I fear if he evers encounters a skunk again, he will have just as good a time, having learned absolutely nothing.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Returning to my point, our weather has been so dry and so hot, our wildfires so abundant, that our yard has been a refuge for everything from mountain parrots to woodpeckers to hummingbirds to white winged doves. Yesterday was so hot that the plastic cap that holds the hummingbird feeder just gave up and let it drop to the ground under the magnolia tree. Our grass is just a breath away from giving up the ghost. No amount of watering can protect it from these temperatures. But no matter. The windchimes are singing and the birds are too in my back yard in spite of living in Hell.

How to Sweat Without Trying

Yesterday our temperature got up to 112°F in the afternoon. Yesterday morning was cool, but this morning is already too warm (fortunately this is an official rest day in my training schedule). I don't even want to know how hot it will be this afternoon, but I suspect I could bake a pizza on my front walk. A hot, dry wind is blowing already. Yesterday's temp was the highest on record in our area's history for April. All we are doing is praying or hoping for rain.

Post-vacation rust

Our four day vacation in the countryside was a disaster in many ways. It was nice to be out of the city, but the weather was cloudy, humid, and hot but it simply would not rain. People and horses alike were tired, the countryside was drought-tired, and the few relatively cool moments of the morning couldn't offset the killing humidity. So, I practically didn't move the whole time, and today it was time to get back into the training groove.-----------------------------------------------------Adrián has some plan in mind that will have me doing 5K in 25 minutes by August. It seems unbelievable to me, but he has done wonders with people who are coming back from serious injuries and even surgery. That could mean that by next February I might even cross the finish line on foot and not on a stretcher. But at my age, coming back from four days of doing nothing means every joint, tendon, and ligament is rusted. Even my mind was having trouble turning over.---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------This means that next week in Seattle, there will be no rest for the weary and the old. Near to my son's house there is a large pond circumnavegated by a running path that measures exactly half a mile. There are a couple of horrific uphill sections that seem to go on for about ten miles--again, the time-warp factor--but by dang, the weather is fantastic for running. A long time ago in a CPR class I took, the doctor mentioned that if you are going to have a heart attack, do it in Seattle. In proportion to the population, more people know CPR in Seattle than in any other city in the U.S. Seattle is also one of those places where you rarely see immensely fat people, and it seems most of the population is out running no matter what the weather. If that doesn't get me out and moving, there is no hope for me. By that time, I will also have been able to get myself proper running clothes and I will no longer be tripping over a sweat-soaked cotton tee.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Adrián seems to have something terrible planned for Sunday, some kind of trotting activity over "rougher terrain", whatever that means. God. And here I've been avoiding the crosswalk paint! "You'll use different muscles", he informs me. Yes, falling often does call other muscles into play.---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Meanwhile, back at the ranch, a virtual running pal suggested protein supplements to keep one's appetite under control; you may have spent around 350 calories during a training session, but your body wants to replace that with around 3000 calories to make sure you are well-nourished and ready for tomorrow. We're not talking an attack of the munchies here, but real, physiological hunger. So a friend with whom I took bellydancing classes is coming over with some good protein supplements. She sells them, and she lost over 60 pounds on a diet regimen that included these products. At this point, anything that will make my stomach realize it has actually been fed. I'll let you know if the stuff works.

Talking to Myself

The city has emptied out, and so has the park and running path. Everyone has gone for Easter holidays, and the die-hard core of my training group went to another park in order to practice for the biking portion of their triathlon.----------------------------------------------------------------------My running book says that once you decide you want to enter a race longer than 5K, you will have to train your mind to concentrate on the job in hand and not to wander all over creation as you make up tomorrow's shopping list or wonder if that gurgling sound is your stomach. Well, I have news for the author of the book. You'd better start developing your own internal pep talk from the outset, or you are doomed. Once you get past the gasping-for-air beginning stage of your training, things just get harder. At least, they do thanks to Adrián. So that initial euphoria will still be there, but you are just going to have to talk yourself through to the end of each training session, especially toward the end:-------------------------------------------------------------"God, only eight minutes left to go, and I'm through for today. What's that gurgling sound? Okay, ignore it, just concentrate, glance at your watch just to make sure you don't overshoot the eight minutes....Jesus H., only 20 seconds have gone by!!! Okay, okay, stop looking at the watch and try to find a groove....I've got sweat in my eyes and my glasses are fogged up, that helps, I can't see the watch anyway.....Look, there's a policeman on watch at the next street crossing, if I can just get past him then I'll stop no matter what. No, no, just keep on, if you collapse he'll call an ambulance. Oh my God, I only have 31 seconds to go!!! Who cares about 31 seconds, I could stop right now....no....no....there's no wimping out now, and I won't worry about those body parts I think fell off somewhere, my stretcher bearers can pick them up when they carry me home.....Gosh, Holmes, I really miss you!"

Little Halter Tops

Our weather is heating up, though the mornings are still nice. Still, I writhe with envy as I see women dash along the running path wearing these cool little halter tops made of nifty synthetic fibers that whisk your sweat away so it can evaporate. That way you don't end your training session like I do: in an oversized cotton tee shirt so soaked with sweat that it hangs down around my knees. It would be completely viable for us women to wear just our sports bras, since they are formidable pieces of clothing meant to act as independent devices, resembling medieval armor.----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------The problem is not so much what to wear as what to show the world. Nothing on God's green earth would induce me to reveal the excess rolls and tires clinging to my torso. It may be true that after years of doing crunches I have the much-envied washboard abs, but at the moment they are overlaid with washboard fat. By running in the early morning, it is entirely feasible--as far as sunshine avoidance is concerned--to wear refreshing halter tops, but it aint gonna happen as long as these many extra pounds still adorn my midsection. Unfortunately, my appetite is ferocious as a result of running, so whatever calories are consumed by that are replaced with peach crisp topped with a dab of ice cream, Tuscan roast chicken with balsamic vinegar, slices of whole wheat bagette dribbled with olive oil and sprinkled with parmesan cheese and toasted under the broiler, and pan-seared grape tomatoes--also done in olive oil. The rest of the day I fight off hunger--usually losing the battle--with water, coffee, glasses of skim milk, and fruit. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------But now there may be hope. Again I managed to finish my training routine with energy to spare (!!!), so I ran an extra block. Not trotting, not jogging, but running. With some luck, I may be hitting the break-even point in calorie consumption and utilization, and perhaps, just maybe, there is a little halter top in my future.